Revisiting Faith of Our Fathers

As a child, today was always a big deal Sunday in my house. And I have to be honest, I was almost a teen before I even fully grasped why--Palm Sunday was up there near, though not quite at, Christmas Mass and Easter, and when my first name still had a 'y' on the end of it, I never really followed the reasoning as to why. Ecce Homo indeed.

Palm Sunday has always seemed to me to be some variation of the deceptive handshake. The New Testament has accounts of the triumphal entry of the Son of God into Jerusalem, being welcomed as part of the inevitability of a week that had Him crucified on Friday (a more excruciating way to die at the time was unknown) and resurrected on Sunday.

I never impressed any of the nuns at St. Peter's School (now called Saint Peter the Apostle Elementary School I guess to distinguish him from the St. Peter who played shortstop for the Newark Bears in the middle seventies) with my scholastic aptitude or ability to interpret scriptures (I was almost married  before I caught understood the import of 'for I know not any man' and Joseph not having Mary stoned and why) and yet I still experience a dryness in my mouth of dread and foreboding as the events of the Passion Week unfold.

I couldn't stop reading about it as a child but I couldn't look away. When Tim Rice and Andrew Lloyd Webber cashed in with Jesus Christ Superstar, if nothing else, they linked the inquisition of Christ forever in my mind with a jaunty little music hall number I can hear even as I type this. Another reason I'm very confident in my destination of the next life.

Today is a day for many to visit the church of their choice. Sidewalks are crowded as families make their way to retrieve fronds of blessed palm (my mom's mother had a piece that never left its location, behind a framed black and white photo on the wall in the apartment in Elechester. Only now do I realize I have no idea of whom the picture was, nor any idea who I might ask). 

The blessed palm that doesn't end up scotch-taped to auto rear-view mirrors or suspended by a thumbtack alongside the front door will be collected after all the Masses today, at least in the Catholic Church of my youth, and then burned to become the ashes used on our foreheads for Ash Wednesday.

Intro ibo ad alteri Dei. I think I still know the words and know that I always shall. I once had the faith to believe in their meaning but I lost that, or perhaps threw it over the side to help speed me on my way, but then I lost my way. 

And now, I have the charts and maps spread out on the floor, but it's starless and bible black and I can't find my way home.

-bill kenny