I've watched this anniversary date approach for weeks, knowing
that words are never enough. It's a hole on the calendar, about the size of the
hole in my heart. It doesn't hurt less knowing so many of us ache for the same
reason. Twenty-three years on, recalling the events of 11 September 2001
doesn't diminish the pain of remembrance.
Four planes, people whose lives were suddenly and
horribly ended in the air and on the ground, three buildings- two totally
destroyed, the other deeply scarred, and a Pennsylvania field forever
transformed into a memorial. And all these years later, the sharp edge of
regret and loss may have dulled slightly, as time has worn it down, but the
hurt gets worse as the heart gets harder.
New York’s World Trade Center, WTC, towered over 'The
City' as a presence, more felt than seen. Manhattan looked to the WTC the way
the fingers on the hand looked to the thumb.
The destruction was no less real at
the Pentagon, in Washington, D. C., where so many in and out of uniform who
served America and worked to preserve her peace had war visited upon them,
without warning or reason.
Nor was the devastation across a Pennsylvanian
hillside less painful or complete where, for weeks and months afterward, no
blade of grass grew, and no bird flew. All we felt was a raw ache.
We seemed to listen more carefully to one another, at
least for a time afterward. We spoke to each other instead of at each other.
Having witnessed how frail and fragile life could be, it seemed we had resolved
to see past and through the political differences, find the essentials, and seek common ground.
And then tomorrow and tomorrow and that well-known petty pace
crept in, and we found ourselves standing together at anniversary remembrances
of today, but not as close as we had stood the year previous.
Slowly, we chose a return to a country that always seems
to involve blaming and shaming, shouting and pointing, pushing and shoving,
posturing and pouting, until here we are, so many years older but no wiser.
Many have forgotten, or choose to forget, that we have
always been where everyone else on earth has wanted to be. No one seeking to
come here has ever thought we were perfect, but believe we allow everyone and
anyone the opportunity to dream and to become their dream.
We were the nation with open hearts and open minds,
who rolled up a sleeve to help a neighbor or someone we'd not yet met halfway
across the world; who looked you squarely in the eye and whether we agreed or
not, always let you speak your mind and tell us your heart.
Some see today as a national day of service. That is
a path worth exploring as we can still use a lot of help even if we're not sure
how to ask for it. We can start on a return to being the greatest nation on
earth everyone else continues to believe we are and to be the Americans that
everyone else sees when they look to us.
We could get along better, maybe by muddling along
together, by rediscovering the beliefs and values that bring and keep us together,
making us who we are, and seeing how that goes. And perhaps we could begin to do
all of that today.
-bill kenny